19.
University of Ballarat.
Life.
Dad & Brother.
One day at a time.
I’m sorry for failing. I’m sorry for continually trying. I’m sorry for falling. I’m sorry for getting back up. I’m sorry for not caring. I’m sorry for caring too much.
Sick of living for everyone else, I wish I depended and put trust in no body but myself, because everyone leaves.
Truth is, everybody is going to hurt you; you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for.
I want to find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep… wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you’re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you…. The one who turns to his friends and says “that’s her
10th January, 2012
It’s times like these when I wish things were different, what I’d give to be able to speak to you again without all the added pressure.
I don’t want to go through these feelings alone, and I’m sure in years to come you will regret what you’ve done and the decisions you’ve made I’m not coming back this time.
You hurt me too often, and I’m not mended from the last time.
I’ve learnt that life is full of surprises, both good and bad. But if you focus on the bad, you can close yourself off to something that could change your life. Looking out on the ocean reminds me of this… Infinite possibilities.
8th January, 2012
Waking with a smile on your face and falling asleep the same way.. This new year has brought so much already and it’s looks as if it’s only going to get better :)
New years resolution: meet new people and rid myself of those who were holding me back!
So far so good!
A long time coming… Dec 28th, 2011
Wow it’s been a while, and honestly alot has changed.
One wouldn’t believe the types of things thrown my way, I don’t even believe it and I’m living it everyday.
I just want to say I don’t understand this cruel world we all live in and how one decides who hurts and who doesn’t. I understand, everyone has there problems and I’m not looking for pity or someone to feel sorry for me… Just as escape!
I’ve flown half way across the world thinking these problems would go away but they stay. Let me be clear running does nothing, it just prolongs what your avoiding.
For example I’m running from my family and friends and a boy. And leaving did nothing I had the problems before I left and I still have them now but with a better tan.
I need to find closure in my life, I still need to find a way to be happy with myself because I’m not, and because I’m not I continue to let other people get me down. For gods sake, Christmas just past and usually it is my favorite time of the year and it was possibly the worst day yet.
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