Wow it’s been a while, and honestly alot has changed.
One wouldn’t believe the types of things thrown my way, I don’t even believe it and I’m living it everyday.
I just want to say I don’t understand this cruel world we all live in and how one decides who hurts and who doesn’t. I understand, everyone has there problems and I’m not looking for pity or someone to feel sorry for me… Just as escape!
I’ve flown half way across the world thinking these problems would go away but they stay. Let me be clear running does nothing, it just prolongs what your avoiding.
For example I’m running from my family and friends and a boy. And leaving did nothing I had the problems before I left and I still have them now but with a better tan.
I need to find closure in my life, I still need to find a way to be happy with myself because I’m not, and because I’m not I continue to let other people get me down. For gods sake, Christmas just past and usually it is my favorite time of the year and it was possibly the worst day yet.
